Alan YEAH!

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE :)

 

ONE more day to my enlistment date, it's gonna be a big change in my life after i enlist, less time with friends and family, more time for me to get emo at night or maybe i might be too tired to get emo and lastly, hopefully i'll still be the same Alan after my n.s and maybe more mature? and of cos, skinnier and muscular!:)..
anyway...thanks everyone!! for coming to the gathering tonight :), so happy to see you guys again, never thought we would have this kind of big gathering.
well, as for today, kenny, ziguo and daryl woke me up from my hunky sleep *opp of beauty sleep* by shouting so BLOODY LOUD outside my house and my mum thought there's like some siao people outside. glad tt they woke me up cause if not i would have missed daryl's bdae. we went to have breakfast at the kopitiam around my place then we bought a cake for daryl and i insisted in paying for it cause i didn't buy any present for him.
Around 3? 4pm?, cheryl, jack, andre and louis came to my house to slack abit then we went down to marina bay to meet marcus, eileen, issac and his gf for steamboat AND of course, with me around, there will be cam whoring and means i'll be uploading pics for you people to see!! *now now, stop rolling your eyes and enjoy those pics!* 



*note* the pics below might not be very clear due to my lousy handphone *HINT* and yes, christmas is coming, i don mind receiving any nice present :P *

hehe can see tt they were forced by me to take this pic :P

hehe a group photo taken using my hp cam and cause it's lousy and no one brought cam so can't blame my hp for tt :)

MR BIG BOSS seated in the middle who turn up when everyone had left, but oh well.. it's the thought tt counts :)

a... me? hehe wonder when i'll have the chance to take this kind of crazy pic when my hair's gone~ =/

and again... gonna say byebye to my poor hair today cause i'm going to shave it before i enlist.

~if we could meet earlier~

I'm now using my ipod touch to blog so this won't be a long entry. Anyway I just argued with my fucking son of a bitch mother, just because I chat using my hp, she get all so work up and started nagging at me about radiation and stuff n she even confiscated my hp n com. Come on la old sluty bitch, you living in the 60s or what, phone is no longer tt harmful compared to last time. I mean it's so obvious tt she's picking fault on me, she even beg me to live outside or with my dad in Taiwan when I finish my ns and studies, you BLOODY hell think I wanna stay with you? Ever since I'm in primary school I always wished to run away from home. the most hurting sentence she said was she regretted giving birth to me! Fuck you think I wanna be born and suffer in a incomplete family you created for me! I'm living in my house not jail! I need room to breathe!!!

hey peeps :) i'm back to update!! well a short update though, cause it's like 3.29am NOW!! and i'm should to be sleeping since i'm suppose to wake up at 7am to send my mum to the airport but.. i can't sleep :(.. cause i'm thinking of a few stuff after reading a blog which i'm new to and it's some how related to me.. hehe confidential, so i won't say which blog i visited. 

recently i watched 4 movies!! but i won't go into detail like how i think about the movie but i guess overall, you should watch them :)

1st movie i watched = Game Plan, 2nd movie = Lars & The Real Girl, 3rd movie = Stardust and lastly i watched Beowulf.

As for today, a... i mean yesterday, i went out for lunch with Seth and i helped him to look for his friend bdae present, after that,  i went to meet louis, arthur, amanda, zac and zac's friends :). we went shopping at marina square. well i bought afew stuff and don think i'll tell you guys what i bought since SOME PEOPLE might start judging, anyway it's nothing big deal la, who don care for their complexion right! well, tt's a big hint now :P.

 we went to a pub to chill after shopping and i forgot what is the name of the pub since we randomly went into one. the pub got this very cool female singer and i soooooo soooo love her man... a... i mean her singing :P it's a damn nice place to get emo :P haha and of cos chilling out with dates or friends. As a lousy drinker, i got myself a cup of 'Singapore Sling', well you guys might start 'chey-ing' now but it's still quite strong for me! hehe so if you wanna make me drunk, you know how right :P well maybe second cup of 'singapore sling' will have better effect lol!. 
well i guess tt's all for today, can't think of better things to write and to end of with.. so...
sleep tight people *some of you might be in your lala land already :P*
Night~~

you are my friends...... don judge! accept me for who i am!
you are my parents....  don judge! love me and forgive me for this is not what i wanted   

well, met cheryl today and we went to bishan library, thought that it's new so we decided to go take a look but was quite disppointed with the place cause they got quite limited of books and the place is quite small. anyway.. the main purpose i went to the library is to company cheryl to study for her 'o' level and at the same time, i read quite afew of books but didn't managed to finish it cause wasn't able concentrate and of course, normally when i'm bored, i'll just start cam whoring and upload it on the my blog which i'm going to do it now... so behold again bla bla bla... enjoy my pic k! strictly no puking...:P *peace*

hehe cheryl's studying while i'm cam whoring~~ :P aww come on, i don't do this so often right... Lol *roll eyes*

hehe aww. she's studying!!! *staring at cheryl* >_>

hehe we went cafe cartal to have dinner, i know she can't wait to leave the library..:)*don't start your sheeshing again, i'm typing, not talking, peace*

 

Haiz.. feeling emo now so people, i might start crapping so bear with me k!..

i realized that i really suck at handerling relationships, be it love, parents and friends, i just can't do it man.
Ever since i started working, all my friend's leaving me one by one until now, i guess i only left 2? 3? friends that still in contact?.
i don't know, sometimes i blamed my parents for not giving me a proper family which caused me to feel tt i'm deprived from love, it's like i never been really love before. sometimes i really hunger for love, i want be love but nothing seems to be able to make me feel love. 
Everytime when i feel emo, i'll just go down and walk alone with a can of green tea on my hand and a little conversation with myself in my mind. i'll always feel empty, tt emptiness that can never be filled. As a christian, i know that emptiness can be filled by Him but, it seems like never been filled before, sometimes i question him but he never answer.
I guess i'm back to square one again where i used to be a loner when i'm in primary school till secondary, those are the moment i can't wash it off from my memories. i was always bullied by classmates, they spit on my head, pinched me, accused me, ignored me, making my life like hell and they destroyed my childhood. i tried so hard to pull myself back, if not i don't think i will be in this world by now. 
My life is really dramatic, too dramatic that i wish i wasn't part of the drama. 
i've walked so far but i'm not going to give up. 
i'm walking it alone and i believe i'll survive.
i'll wake up from this unwanted nightmares and start facing my day with a smile be it fake or real, i can do it..... i'm sure.

HaPpY SuPeR BeLatEd BIrThDaY To Marcus & MummY~~(20/10)
well, didn't took any photo on my mum's bdae so can't post anything up BUT... hehe i took lots and lots of pics on my bdae~~, i'll be uploading LOTS of pics later and i seriously mean LOTS of pics and as usual, i'll type less and upload more pics.. abit speechless now, no idea what to say.

OHOHOH~~ know what!!!, i got my enlistment letter!, *NOTE* hehe i'll be going in on the 14/12, 9.30 @ maju camp.. can't believe i got to say farewell to my beloved, super beloved, super super beloved........ HAIR!!! Ahhhh why is this happening to me... well of cos, i'm not going in without meeting all of you guys out there, whom i have not meet out for quite a long time already (my friends k, no strangers~~ mummy said, never talk to strangers haha *like i care* :P).

second news, i'm not working anymore~~ :) means, i'm going to have limited money to spend :(, so those whom i have been treating.. hehe know what you guys should do right!!! *blink*
okok, guess enough of talking now, and again i should warn you guys first :P

*WARNING* as you scroll down, lots of cam whoring pics will appear, so for people who have weak heart, do not take the risk! BUT still i spend lots of my precious time on putting them together so even if you Die!!! you have to see it!! hehehe :P.*peace* 

...BEHOLD.................................................LOADING.....................................COMPLETED...

 
 19th Birthday celebration...



One of my preetay present :) Thanks~~

 
 
Went clubbing with Jaryl, Cheryl and Chris~~

though we won't be contacting anymore but you guys have left me a very precious present, that's the memories

Swensens Supper night~~ woo hoo...i enjoyed myself TOTALLY!! and tt's the day i realised how much i can eat @_@..

 

hehe cam whoring? nah... just making use of my phone camera, come on~~ i won't get to use it in n.s right :P

hehe.. not only i'm a cam whore, i'm SURE my sis is a cam whore too.. *shake head* no wonder we are twins *muacks* love you meimei~


 
hehe this is what i call 'classic pics' haha alright alright enought of my bull shit, Sing Ling and I!


 
haha guess what happened? hehe cheryl and i sneak out of the house the middle of the night around 4am in the morning just to go east coast, but what happened, i thought we could like walk around beside the sea and chit chat but i guess god felt like crying at that point so it started to rain... 


 
Random pics~~

haha surprisingly i'm not tired to blog.. haha but this time round just to upload a video from youtube.. i love it so much and i wanna share it with you guys :P enjoy!! 

I'm back!! haha can't believe i feel like blogging *roll eyes*.. anyway... i went out with nadya today and we took afew pics and after hanging out her, i went to meet 2 of my friends for supper and they were forced by me to take pic just becos i wanted to upload into my blog :P haha as usual, i'll type less cause i know there's people out there eyeing on my blog and especially on my language, soo hehe enjoy the pics!!! @_@ huh?! i heard complain?! hmmm not tt bad right... i took the effort to take pics can~~ so ENJOY IT!! *muacks*

 
hehe~ a... there's one pic of me trying to make a fish ball shape from my cheek and i guess i failed and know what nadya said? she said my cheek bone not high enough~~ now now,my dear girl those shape comes from your FATS in your face and not cheek bone.. you think i can move my cheek bone!! hehe you know i love you~~~ 

 
we enjoying our baileys chocolate milk shake~~~

 
hehe went to meet them for supper after meeting nadya and they were forced to take this pic.

 
found this pic from some restaurant menu tt nadya and i had our dinner, find it quite cute and since i'm from the band too~~
  
 
hehe this cute yet unglam cat lol!.. didn't notice it till i was about to leave to kopitiam..

hey peeps!! after sooooo long i've decided to start updating. well lots of stuff happened but it's too much for me to tell here and i guess not all of you will understand what i'm talking about sooooo i'm going to upload PICS! and i mean LOTS and LOTS of pics :P!! hehe, so which means there will be less typing hehe. i'm not giving excuses k! as i said before, pictures tells a thousand words, so by uploading so many pics i guess i have written more then millon of words!! :P.. haha okok enough of crapping.. can't wait to see those pics right... aww i know :P
as usual..... 

*WARNING* there will be lots of zhi lian pics so if you think you can't handle it... hmm.. hehe still see them la :P i spend so much time on putting them together k! so try not to puke till the end of the pic.. haha


 

lol!! camera are use to take photos and i'm just making full use of it :P  too much of me? nah. i don think soo :P.  

hehe those are just random pic tt i took.. and of cos my fav pics is the pic that shows the armpit with lots of HAIR~~ *slurp* -_-" reminds me of the forest.. eww...

1st pic, kenny and i ,2nd pic, peter and i, 3rd pic, cheryl and i 4th pic, anna and i

spot the similarity?

hehe outing to sentosa beach with szehui, swee eng and 2 more girls which is not in the pic so i won't mention them :P haha not being mean and we are not very close to either.
 
 

AWww.... My Dear Nadya's Birthday!! happy 19th bday girl!! 

Proudly present....*drum roll*... LAURA!!! she's back!!! but.. afew days only :( i'll miss ya~

 

haha after band prac, szehui and i acting cool with our instrument :P

 

haha what's life without acting cute and mad :P..what?! can't see me clearly in the pic? hehe simply click on the pics and you can see me as close as in real life lol!. well this is it for the pics.. even though i still have lots to say but i'm too tired to think right now.. haven't been sleeping well this few days.. went to bed like 5 am in the morning!! -_-" guess i'll stop here and i won't promise i'll update soon~~ :P haha if not i'll get naggying for not updating.. night peeps!