Alan YEAH!

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE :)

 

ONE more day to my enlistment date, it's gonna be a big change in my life after i enlist, less time with friends and family, more time for me to get emo at night or maybe i might be too tired to get emo and lastly, hopefully i'll still be the same Alan after my n.s and maybe more mature? and of cos, skinnier and muscular!:)..
anyway...thanks everyone!! for coming to the gathering tonight :), so happy to see you guys again, never thought we would have this kind of big gathering.
well, as for today, kenny, ziguo and daryl woke me up from my hunky sleep *opp of beauty sleep* by shouting so BLOODY LOUD outside my house and my mum thought there's like some siao people outside. glad tt they woke me up cause if not i would have missed daryl's bdae. we went to have breakfast at the kopitiam around my place then we bought a cake for daryl and i insisted in paying for it cause i didn't buy any present for him.
Around 3? 4pm?, cheryl, jack, andre and louis came to my house to slack abit then we went down to marina bay to meet marcus, eileen, issac and his gf for steamboat AND of course, with me around, there will be cam whoring and means i'll be uploading pics for you people to see!! *now now, stop rolling your eyes and enjoy those pics!* 



*note* the pics below might not be very clear due to my lousy handphone *HINT* and yes, christmas is coming, i don mind receiving any nice present :P *

hehe can see tt they were forced by me to take this pic :P

hehe a group photo taken using my hp cam and cause it's lousy and no one brought cam so can't blame my hp for tt :)

MR BIG BOSS seated in the middle who turn up when everyone had left, but oh well.. it's the thought tt counts :)

a... me? hehe wonder when i'll have the chance to take this kind of crazy pic when my hair's gone~ =/

and again... gonna say byebye to my poor hair today cause i'm going to shave it before i enlist.

~if we could meet earlier~

I'm now using my ipod touch to blog so this won't be a long entry. Anyway I just argued with my fucking son of a bitch mother, just because I chat using my hp, she get all so work up and started nagging at me about radiation and stuff n she even confiscated my hp n com. Come on la old sluty bitch, you living in the 60s or what, phone is no longer tt harmful compared to last time. I mean it's so obvious tt she's picking fault on me, she even beg me to live outside or with my dad in Taiwan when I finish my ns and studies, you BLOODY hell think I wanna stay with you? Ever since I'm in primary school I always wished to run away from home. the most hurting sentence she said was she regretted giving birth to me! Fuck you think I wanna be born and suffer in a incomplete family you created for me! I'm living in my house not jail! I need room to breathe!!!

hey peeps :) i'm back to update!! well a short update though, cause it's like 3.29am NOW!! and i'm should to be sleeping since i'm suppose to wake up at 7am to send my mum to the airport but.. i can't sleep :(.. cause i'm thinking of a few stuff after reading a blog which i'm new to and it's some how related to me.. hehe confidential, so i won't say which blog i visited. 

recently i watched 4 movies!! but i won't go into detail like how i think about the movie but i guess overall, you should watch them :)

1st movie i watched = Game Plan, 2nd movie = Lars & The Real Girl, 3rd movie = Stardust and lastly i watched Beowulf.

As for today, a... i mean yesterday, i went out for lunch with Seth and i helped him to look for his friend bdae present, after that,  i went to meet louis, arthur, amanda, zac and zac's friends :). we went shopping at marina square. well i bought afew stuff and don think i'll tell you guys what i bought since SOME PEOPLE might start judging, anyway it's nothing big deal la, who don care for their complexion right! well, tt's a big hint now :P.

 we went to a pub to chill after shopping and i forgot what is the name of the pub since we randomly went into one. the pub got this very cool female singer and i soooooo soooo love her man... a... i mean her singing :P it's a damn nice place to get emo :P haha and of cos chilling out with dates or friends. As a lousy drinker, i got myself a cup of 'Singapore Sling', well you guys might start 'chey-ing' now but it's still quite strong for me! hehe so if you wanna make me drunk, you know how right :P well maybe second cup of 'singapore sling' will have better effect lol!. 
well i guess tt's all for today, can't think of better things to write and to end of with.. so...
sleep tight people *some of you might be in your lala land already :P*
Night~~

you are my friends...... don judge! accept me for who i am!
you are my parents....  don judge! love me and forgive me for this is not what i wanted   

well, met cheryl today and we went to bishan library, thought that it's new so we decided to go take a look but was quite disppointed with the place cause they got quite limited of books and the place is quite small. anyway.. the main purpose i went to the library is to company cheryl to study for her 'o' level and at the same time, i read quite afew of books but didn't managed to finish it cause wasn't able concentrate and of course, normally when i'm bored, i'll just start cam whoring and upload it on the my blog which i'm going to do it now... so behold again bla bla bla... enjoy my pic k! strictly no puking...:P *peace*

hehe cheryl's studying while i'm cam whoring~~ :P aww come on, i don't do this so often right... Lol *roll eyes*

hehe aww. she's studying!!! *staring at cheryl* >_>

hehe we went cafe cartal to have dinner, i know she can't wait to leave the library..:)*don't start your sheeshing again, i'm typing, not talking, peace*

 

Haiz.. feeling emo now so people, i might start crapping so bear with me k!..

i realized that i really suck at handerling relationships, be it love, parents and friends, i just can't do it man.
Ever since i started working, all my friend's leaving me one by one until now, i guess i only left 2? 3? friends that still in contact?.
i don't know, sometimes i blamed my parents for not giving me a proper family which caused me to feel tt i'm deprived from love, it's like i never been really love before. sometimes i really hunger for love, i want be love but nothing seems to be able to make me feel love. 
Everytime when i feel emo, i'll just go down and walk alone with a can of green tea on my hand and a little conversation with myself in my mind. i'll always feel empty, tt emptiness that can never be filled. As a christian, i know that emptiness can be filled by Him but, it seems like never been filled before, sometimes i question him but he never answer.
I guess i'm back to square one again where i used to be a loner when i'm in primary school till secondary, those are the moment i can't wash it off from my memories. i was always bullied by classmates, they spit on my head, pinched me, accused me, ignored me, making my life like hell and they destroyed my childhood. i tried so hard to pull myself back, if not i don't think i will be in this world by now. 
My life is really dramatic, too dramatic that i wish i wasn't part of the drama. 
i've walked so far but i'm not going to give up. 
i'm walking it alone and i believe i'll survive.
i'll wake up from this unwanted nightmares and start facing my day with a smile be it fake or real, i can do it..... i'm sure.

HaPpY SuPeR BeLatEd BIrThDaY To Marcus & MummY~~(20/10)
well, didn't took any photo on my mum's bdae so can't post anything up BUT... hehe i took lots and lots of pics on my bdae~~, i'll be uploading LOTS of pics later and i seriously mean LOTS of pics and as usual, i'll type less and upload more pics.. abit speechless now, no idea what to say.

OHOHOH~~ know what!!!, i got my enlistment letter!, *NOTE* hehe i'll be going in on the 14/12, 9.30 @ maju camp.. can't believe i got to say farewell to my beloved, super beloved, super super beloved........ HAIR!!! Ahhhh why is this happening to me... well of cos, i'm not going in without meeting all of you guys out there, whom i have not meet out for quite a long time already (my friends k, no strangers~~ mummy said, never talk to strangers haha *like i care* :P).

second news, i'm not working anymore~~ :) means, i'm going to have limited money to spend :(, so those whom i have been treating.. hehe know what you guys should do right!!! *blink*
okok, guess enough of talking now, and again i should warn you guys first :P

*WARNING* as you scroll down, lots of cam whoring pics will appear, so for people who have weak heart, do not take the risk! BUT still i spend lots of my precious time on putting them together so even if you Die!!! you have to see it!! hehehe :P.*peace* 

...BEHOLD.................................................LOADING.....................................COMPLETED...

 
 19th Birthday celebration...



One of my preetay present :) Thanks~~

 
 
Went clubbing with Jaryl, Cheryl and Chris~~

though we won't be contacting anymore but you guys have left me a very precious present, that's the memories

Swensens Supper night~~ woo hoo...i enjoyed myself TOTALLY!! and tt's the day i realised how much i can eat @_@..

 

hehe cam whoring? nah... just making use of my phone camera, come on~~ i won't get to use it in n.s right :P

hehe.. not only i'm a cam whore, i'm SURE my sis is a cam whore too.. *shake head* no wonder we are twins *muacks* love you meimei~


 
hehe this is what i call 'classic pics' haha alright alright enought of my bull shit, Sing Ling and I!


 
haha guess what happened? hehe cheryl and i sneak out of the house the middle of the night around 4am in the morning just to go east coast, but what happened, i thought we could like walk around beside the sea and chit chat but i guess god felt like crying at that point so it started to rain... 


 
Random pics~~

haha surprisingly i'm not tired to blog.. haha but this time round just to upload a video from youtube.. i love it so much and i wanna share it with you guys :P enjoy!! 

I'm back!! haha can't believe i feel like blogging *roll eyes*.. anyway... i went out with nadya today and we took afew pics and after hanging out her, i went to meet 2 of my friends for supper and they were forced by me to take pic just becos i wanted to upload into my blog :P haha as usual, i'll type less cause i know there's people out there eyeing on my blog and especially on my language, soo hehe enjoy the pics!!! @_@ huh?! i heard complain?! hmmm not tt bad right... i took the effort to take pics can~~ so ENJOY IT!! *muacks*

 
hehe~ a... there's one pic of me trying to make a fish ball shape from my cheek and i guess i failed and know what nadya said? she said my cheek bone not high enough~~ now now,my dear girl those shape comes from your FATS in your face and not cheek bone.. you think i can move my cheek bone!! hehe you know i love you~~~ 

 
we enjoying our baileys chocolate milk shake~~~

 
hehe went to meet them for supper after meeting nadya and they were forced to take this pic.

 
found this pic from some restaurant menu tt nadya and i had our dinner, find it quite cute and since i'm from the band too~~
  
 
hehe this cute yet unglam cat lol!.. didn't notice it till i was about to leave to kopitiam..

hey peeps!! after sooooo long i've decided to start updating. well lots of stuff happened but it's too much for me to tell here and i guess not all of you will understand what i'm talking about sooooo i'm going to upload PICS! and i mean LOTS and LOTS of pics :P!! hehe, so which means there will be less typing hehe. i'm not giving excuses k! as i said before, pictures tells a thousand words, so by uploading so many pics i guess i have written more then millon of words!! :P.. haha okok enough of crapping.. can't wait to see those pics right... aww i know :P
as usual..... 

*WARNING* there will be lots of zhi lian pics so if you think you can't handle it... hmm.. hehe still see them la :P i spend so much time on putting them together k! so try not to puke till the end of the pic.. haha


 

lol!! camera are use to take photos and i'm just making full use of it :P  too much of me? nah. i don think soo :P.  

hehe those are just random pic tt i took.. and of cos my fav pics is the pic that shows the armpit with lots of HAIR~~ *slurp* -_-" reminds me of the forest.. eww...

1st pic, kenny and i ,2nd pic, peter and i, 3rd pic, cheryl and i 4th pic, anna and i

spot the similarity?

hehe outing to sentosa beach with szehui, swee eng and 2 more girls which is not in the pic so i won't mention them :P haha not being mean and we are not very close to either.
 
 

AWww.... My Dear Nadya's Birthday!! happy 19th bday girl!! 

Proudly present....*drum roll*... LAURA!!! she's back!!! but.. afew days only :( i'll miss ya~

 

haha after band prac, szehui and i acting cool with our instrument :P

 

haha what's life without acting cute and mad :P..what?! can't see me clearly in the pic? hehe simply click on the pics and you can see me as close as in real life lol!. well this is it for the pics.. even though i still have lots to say but i'm too tired to think right now.. haven't been sleeping well this few days.. went to bed like 5 am in the morning!! -_-" guess i'll stop here and i won't promise i'll update soon~~ :P haha if not i'll get naggying for not updating.. night peeps!

hey people!! i'm back! finially!.. haha i'm still quite lazy to blog though :P. Anyway, i will be updating stuffs you guys have missed out! haha alright! cause i didn't blog! -_-"
well i will be uploading more pics then typing since i know and you guys know what's the standard of my english. hmm so lets not waste any more time!! enjoy those -ZHI LIAN-(WARNING) pics!! oh FYI, i just got back from taiwan recently, went there for 2 weeks, didn't really do much other then visiting. ohohoh...if pics too small, click to enlarge it :) 

 
Those wonderful time... bye guys!


Pulau ubin trip with friends


out shopping and blood donation with Nadya!


steamboat on John's BdaE!! Happy SUPER belated bdae bro!
 
 
a...........POSER?
 
 
hehe taiwan trip..
 
 
Taiwan trip 2

 
trip to 'peng hu', some island in taiwan


end of taiwan trip!! ciao!!

hey ppl!! haven't been blogging for quite long time... and still i'm feeling lazy to update but i promised my co-worker tt i'll update sooooo here it goes!!!! 

*NOTE* pictures tell a thousand words!! so i'm typing less!! *peace*
*WARNING* pictures contain half nude models.. well you can say pigs :P.. and lots and lots of 'zhi lian' pics so scroll down at your own risk......

having supper after work... :)
 
went back to visit when i'm having off :P...
 
this is what happen when we are hungry!!! muahaha

 
on our way to SeNtOsA!!!
 
we had fun!!
 
cam whoring... who can resist?....
 
pics...pics...pics... and more pics....
 
hope the day never end...

went chomp x2 for supper then nadya and wen zheng came over to stay over night and we watched 'stay alive' cool!!

Create your own Friend Test here

yayaya i know you guys know her and she's my babe.... enjoy the video ya... don watch too many time! cause i don wan to share my babe with too many ppl LOL.....

haha why i said it's a sign, cause i'm falling sick, blocked nose, cough, headache, sore throat and etc have came visiting me and lucky i got my 3 days off to get rid of them... well i know i'm one day late but i hope i'm not too late to wish all the mothers ON earth a HappY MoTher'S DaY!.
well yesterday is mother's day so my sis and i brought mum out for lunch at sushi tei paragon and after lunch, mum picked a few stuff in project shop and i paid for it!! yup! it's her present from me!!... first time spending so much but it's worth it when i saw the smile from her face :). ohohoh and she went to collect her 100 bucks vouchers which i forgot from which shop and she bought me a Adidas watch!!.. thanks mum!
well feeling kinda tired now even though i slept for 3 hours straight when i reached home, think my sick is getting worst.. -_-" i need to more rest, so ciao people!!
*WARNING AGAIN*
-zhi lian- pics going to be uploaded so......... be prepared!, if not........... don scroll down. *evil smile* muahah! 

Hey.. what's a day without cam whoring!! i'm having my off day!!

hehe took afew photo before we start our lunch *happy mother's day!*

hehe hanging out at hong kong cafe with mei while waiting for her boyfriend.

and yup after dinner @ billybombers cathay, we decided to get ice cream from BnJ! and since we are getting discount and bigger scoope cause nicole's there so why not!! :) oh and see what nicole have done, she spilled the water at billy and after the worker have finished wiping the floor they put a sign INFRONT of us. *hiding*

wee.... at last i got my name tag!

went to get my hair cut during my 1 hr and 15 mins break and i'm freaking late for my work la! after hair cut i quickly rush back to work and lucky i didn't get any scolding other then naggying by my shift leader :P...
anyway after work, went to have supper with nadya, steph, deon, and wan jing @ hong kong cafe. haha don't know all this ppl right!? cause they are my co-workers and they are super fun and nice ppl!! if you get to know them...
don't know what to type now... brain's blank BUT my com is not blank... and it's filled with pics!!! lol... so.... you guys know what i'm going to do right! be hold..........

what's life without pics man... haha you guys can ignore the zhi ling pic that i took in the lift while rushing back to work :P

haha don't wanna waste anytime so cam whoring :P

hey peeps! now is like 4.15 am and don know why i'm feeling damn tired but yet don feel like sleeping. tomorrow work start at 2pm and no more complains from me for not having day off cause i think i deserve it.. i agree to take over shift and now i'm bearing what i've agree to do.
well as you guys can see from my SuBjEcT of my entry... i'm emo ~..... ever since i started working, i felt left out by friends (can't help it), don get to see my parent and mei tt often.. i was so touched last night when finially i got to see my dad and next morning i got to see my mei..... seeing them is like i never seen them for yrs... missed them so much.
don know what to say now... suddenly my brain go blank and i guess i'm really tired this time... so night ppl...

well...took this pic with my co-worker when we having supper at long john... see how cam whore can TWO OF THEM BE....*shake head * :P

omg... i'm forced to take this pic lor... hehe i'm kidding.. BUT me smiling this way is requested by nadya 

so... who's cuter!!! i know i know... thanks peeps!! love love!!

hey ppl!.. though i don feel like blogging but i know if nothing is updated, my blog is going to be ignored by you guys sooooooooo i decided to blog abit and upload a few pics....
well... two days ago, during lunch break, at last!!!! i got to drink my beloved cafe latte!!, well doesn't matter where it's from but i still prefer those that is from coffee bean and starbucks *hint*hint*. what's a afternoon break without coffee man!! well and tt's of course if you are a coffee lover like ME :D. so i bought my cafe latte and i sat alone at one of the couch, omg!! i so enjoy those moment man!! even though it would be BETTER if anyone of you is beside me but i love those feeling when i don have to do anything and enjoy my cup of hot coffee....*sigh*. well i might be quitting end of this mth cause i think that i need my rest and my social life back and though all my friends are studying now but at least i still get to enjoy my time at home IF my mum's not nagging and i would like to do some studying... felt tt i'm getting more stupid if i don touch my books. ok la.. think i shall stop now... feeling damn tired now... 4.15am -_-"... working at 3pm tomorrow.. ciao ppl!

what's a afternoon break without coffee

how artistic can we be... haha cheryl (co-worker) and i doing stuff to cheer ourselves up!

wen zhen, cheryl and i having a small party after work!! wen zhen treat us vanilla malts (my fav), cheryl treat brownie and i treat nachos! well as for the fried rice in the pic are cooked by the kitchen chef, damn good i tell you!  *2 thumbs up* 

omg...!!!! i LOVE MY CO-WORKERS!!!! BUT i HATE MY JOB!!!! 
tomorrow suppose to be 'pay day' but i heard from my co-worker that it's a public holiday so we might get our pay on tuesday!!! BUT i'll only get afew hundred bucks only cause they start counting from last mth 16 till this mth 15? ya and i just started working this month so i'll have to wait till next mth to get my BIG MONEY!! haiz... going to spend them like SUPER WISELY.... well i know i'm saying this now but tomorrow will be a different case.... lol.
I NEED MY DAY OFF!! I NEED MY BREAK!!... hai... cine is open and they lack of workers and i have to work like 6 days per week cause my manager seem stressful and i hope i could help her out abit.... i'm NICE k! even though i keep saying that my job sucks but i'm not quitting, not for now :P....
if i'm going to work like this week for the rest off the weeks.... i think i'll get killed..... know who?..... by who?..... mr tired :P -_-" ok i know it's lame but i'm seriously tired la!
and thanks for not giving any comment on the previous entry ya!! no photo no comment? ... fine! here's a photo!!! JUST TAKEN!!!  so start commenting k!!! :P *peace*

hehe just got back from work... omg... today is the first time i see queues in hereen billybombers!!! haha today's like a never ending day... so busy!!! ppl keep coming in and OF COS with voucher -_-". well after work, all my co-workers and i went down to 'hip on diners' by billybombers at cine, firstly to visit our two co-worker that went over to help cause it's going to be offically open tomorrow to public and secondly, we got to try some of the new food over there for FREE!!! haha quite a no. of ppl from different outlet came in too! anyway i had so much fun there!! :P
well... i guess the reason why i hated this this job before cause i'm unable to do things properly and got quite alot of naggy on my order taking, but now... everything is different!!! i'm able to do mostly everything accept to make drinks in bar :P. another reason is actually the people there tt makes me wanna stay and i mean every single one of them.. i can bet tt our outlet got the most fun people compare to others, we make so much noise and we laugh like hell in 'hip on diners' just now. 
ohohoh i might move over to cine when billybombers close down end of next month but i'm not so sure yet! and the only thing i'm sure is tt i might go down to cine to help out on and off, not too sure but tt's what my manager told me just now on the cab :), sooooo people must come down to cine to support k!!! food tt is cheaper and smaller in portion!!
i guess this is it for tonight aka morning cause it's like 3.50 am now!! and i'm working at 3pm so thank god i got to sleep later.